Hi, Boyo (have I used this title before?)

As I sit amidst the ruins of our (first? only? whatever - ) house.. .

To explain: In hopes of our CLOSING DATE of April ("Whan that Abril with his shoores sweete. .. ")

Oh, never mind. I do remember the bucks farteth, though.

We have been desultorially packing (more to the point NOT CLEANING) for weeks, so it is really, REALLY depressing here. Everywhere I look I see things that will not fit in boxes, or which I am embarrassed to own, or...I could go on but would rather not.

Still, darling Boyo.

I am really ready to move on to our NEW HOME.

Hopefully you will rediscover your computer, and our website (hmm?) after a while...

I love you immoderately.

Is there any other way?


(posted by Sally)

Brilliant Beach Day

Easter - an actual tradition, or just one conjured out of happiness, lust and happenstance - One year (an early one, dear heart) when all our sons and daughters had something else to do on Easter Sunday and we found ourselves all alone in the cold, watching the waves, at Ocean Beach State Park (NJ) and we. ...
and...

Again,

it was/is always perfect. Even more so this year. The air and light were better and I created a new piece of art in my head. . .

Darling, darling.

How can we do better than this?

Saturn Return

Saturn is the planet of obligations and requirements and all that "YOUR FATHER-expects-you-to-be"...stuff.

My boyo understands, lives that...his dad was wonderful, and loved him

But

The daddy I PERSONALLY had was abusive, alcoholic and stupid

(in my elderly progress toward - understanding? compassion? Not sure) - I try to think (that I should say things like: "Impaired" "shell-shocked" "horrible mother who twisted everything")

BUT

mostly I think

THANK GOD HE IS DEAD

what do I actually know? \

Nothing.

But to return to the issue actually at hand. . .in the heat of a family crisis I was reluctant to engage, I scheduled a trip to visit my mother and siblings on the day my Harry is celebrating in birthday, not to mention his Second Saturn Return.

There were mitigating circumstances, but -


I am not going there.


I have to go and deal with the fact my mother is (or is not) dying; my sister is (or is not) unable to cope with our Mummy's dying. . . .

And our brother -

Where is our brother, exactly?

My Birthday - I am the April Fool - April is the Cruelest Month, etc.

We close on our house (the one in the picture that Sally posted) on April 21, and we begin moving.

Sally is flying to California to see her mother, brother and sister on April 29, which also happens to be my birthday. It's important Sally make this trip to see her family. We will celebrate my birthday on April 28 in our new house.

I've almost made it to my my second Saturn Return. 59 may be a slightly more accurate age, but I'm in the ballpark.

http://astrology.about.com/od/advancedastrology/p/SaturnReturn.htm